An open letter to my favourite almost,

            Hey, this is my first time to write this kind of letter. I don’t know what made me do this but please bear with my kadramahan. It won’t take too much of your time, I swear.

            How are you? It’s been a long time since the last time we had the time to talk. How’s life going? I hope you’re really doing great. I still remember how you told me ‘bout how stressing school is. And I hope you’re coping up, matatapos na tong sem na to. Laban lang!

            Enough for the kamustahan, you might get bored and stop reading this. Things happened too fast for us and maybe that’s the reason why what’s between us ended too soon too. I was at the lowest point of my life when you came. I tried to build walls from you because honestly you weren’t my type in the first time that I saw you. But things happened… God knew how I tried to stop myself for liking you. My friends also knew how I tried to distance myself from you. But you never gave up. Until then, sabi ko sa sarili ko. Bahala na, what happens, happens. I’ll just go with the flow. Until things happen again. Ang gago mo dun. You lied. Nag sinungaling ka kahit alam na alam mong ayaw na ayaw ko sa taong sinungaling. I was hurt and didn’t expected it. I promised myself na hindi na ako ulit masaksaktan after my long term relationship but you succeeded. Until then, di na ako naniwala sayo but you insisted yourself and ako naman si tanga, I continued talking to you kahit alam kong HINDI PWEDE at HINDI TAMA. We continued talking as if may tayo. Ang saya natin. But that happiness didn’t last. Kailangan natin tanggapin na hindi tayo pwede. May bumalik at siguro yun na yung time na kailangan natin tanggapin na we need to stop what is really between us…

            Things ended between us but know that you made me happy in a short period of time. You became my support system and cheerleader during the times that I was so down. You let me feel that I was loved when I couldn’t even love myself. You cared for me more than you care for yourself. You listened to my pointless dramas when nobody wants to listen. Thank you for all the good days.

            Sorry. Sorry that I need to stop what is between us. Sorry that I need to step backward from you. Sorry for giving up on what could have between us. It’s all because you belong with someone else at hindi ako yun at hindi din ikaw yung para sakin. Kailangan kitang isauli sa kanya kasi in the first place hindi ka naman talaga naging akin. And that’s one of the reason why I couldn’t fight for you. YOU BELONG TO SOMEONE ELSE. And I need to go back to the person who really owns my heart. You will always have a space in my heart that no one could replace.

            Let’s continue to move on with our own lives. Let us continue to strive to happy because we both deserve it. Hindi man sumang-ayon si tadhana sa ating dalawa, atleast we had the time. Atleast at some point of our lives naging masaya tayo kahit sa kunting panahon. Maybe God let us meet for a reason. And that reason is that we need to appreciate what is really for us and to let go of the things that are not meant for us.

            To add more, listen to “Hindi Tayo Pwede” by the Juans and you’ll understand me. Sorry if I failed you and if you hate me ‘til now, I hope you’ll forgive me soon.